everything starts with me talking about how i’m not doing this or that properly and then i write something or do a podcast and then everything becomes okay and i become energized and then get what i need to done.that’s been my life for the past various months of my life.
the amount i’ve talked about the past can attest to that.
i do so much talking about the beauty of living in the present and doing good things for yourself but somehow they very easily slide on by for me.
i try them and then don’t do them.
i try to work and then forget everything i learned to make it possible.
the point is…
i always have a point
this time i don’t have one.
i got rejected from stanny.
it hurt a lot.
i spent a few days recovering from it.
i went on a mandatory run after but things started deteriorating after i visited stanford to celebrate.
was that a good idea?
maybe, maybe not.
but i wanted everything to end like a movie so i guess it was a good one.
the day after i ran to school.
and everything went downhill mentally from there.
it was hard not to snap.
it was hard to stay upright.
it was hard to smile.
it was really hard to smile.
but i’m fine now.
a lot of years, a lot of effort, a lot of dreaming, and where’d it get us?
everywhere.
i’m happy with the person i am right now.
and it wasn’t stanford that made me that person.
it was me.
i’ve got a lot of regular decision applications to work on.
and honestly i’ve got so many i don’t know where to begin.
but as i’ve learnt in the past, i just need to pick something, get to writing, and everything else will slowly fall into place.
i mean i’ve taught myself this concept so many times that if i don’t start using it i’d put it to waste.
so let’s not.
i’ve always been meh at taking my own advice.
sometimes it works.
sometimes it doesn’t.
and if i’ve got to be intentional about one thing for not just the next few weeks, but for the next few lifetimes…
it’s taking it.
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