My mind has been god dangin’ sharp this week.
It’s worked extremely hard and funny enough, also managed to eliminate any sense of “wasting time” from its system.
In short: I’m a pretty cool dude now.
Yeah no.
My body, it seems, worked a little too hard this week, and through all the math quizzes, lectures, assignments, PIQs, personal statements, and won elections, it got tired.
So it woke me up this past Friday with a parched mouth and subjected me to the most torturous day ever.
The Torture
I walked out of my bed and I drank some water, felt nauseous, and promptly threw up.
I haven’t thrown up for ages, and I wouldn’t expect a plant-based gluten-free grass-eater like me to either.
But apparently one wasn’t enough, and my body went “screw you” and threw up whatever else was left in my system.
Honestly kind of weird, huh!
Especially given the fact that COVID exists, this wasn’t the most fun.
I then had a fever and watched movie after movie as I sat and drank my apple juice, lemon juice, and other liquids, kinda mad that my body stopped in the most important time ever.
Then I watched Legally Blonde and the day ended.
Woke up the next day without a fever.
Felt lightheaded most of the time.
Couldn’t get much work done.
Watched more television.
Read this book.
Woke up the next day.
Found out I couldn’t go on that JapanTown trip I wanted.
Waddled around doing random stuff.
Found out I did not have COVID.
Then my brother threw up.
And I went to sleep.
It wouldn’t be me though if I didn’t take the craze that were the past couple of days and convert them into a neat package of learning, wouldn’t it?
And it wouldn’t be me if I actually gave you what you were thinking and didn’t totally surprise you and tell you I have no learnings from this.
With that said, here’s why these couple days were beautiful…
The Beautiful
I woke up.
I threw up.
I threw up again (relief).
I watched this show for the first time.
I got to do nothing.
And I got to sit down outside, ground on the grass, and talk to my mom for an hour.
I got to trust in my body that it was doing the right thing.
I had to appreciate the ability to simply live properly.
Watched Legally Blonde.
Read this book.
Had to sit in my unproductiveness and learn how to wait!
Mindful eating practice.
Built a semblance of a college list.
Appreciation, yet again, for my ability to run like a normal person and not like a waddler.
A couple much needed days off from the world and its work.
An understanding that if I need a day off, I can take one, even if I’m not sick.
I deserve it.
So… why that title?
Because I sat at home these past couple of days feeling repressed from being able to do my daily lifestyle stuff.
And I’ve gotta be honest, while I did literally just sit and do nothing and there was beauty about it, a lot of the time I was just annoyed that this was what I became.
I have learnt some fun things though, the most important one being I have the mental ability to get through crazy things and keep my mind from exploding even when it literally does.
I don’t want you to go out and get sick to have to learn this, but I do gotta tell you it isn’t that bad of an idea…
Okay that was a joke.
But this was how my past week went, full of crazy high highs, and beautifully low lows, and I’m not mad about it.
Even though I missed Japantown and even though I missed getting a lot of stuff done, I did also get to do a whole lot of things as well.
There’s beauty in being alone.
In learning to just sit silent.
Still.
And wait.
Connect.
And be.
I love this: "There’s beauty in being alone.
In learning to just sit silent.
Still.
And wait.
Connect.
And be."