i turned 20 yesterday
and also published my first book
the book will be *hopefully* approved
in the next few days
so stay tuned for a link
but first
let’s talk about yesterday
yesterday i performed my poetry
in front of my close friends
a 30ish minute set
full of narration
character play
and poetic release
we breathed together
we felt in communion
and we shared deep presence
-
if you know me
you’ll know i gave a
speech in high school
that changed my life
since then i’ve searched for a stage
larger than myself
to find that feeling again
to feel the profound sense of belonging
elicited through the radiant feel of a collective
guess what?
i found it!
and it was more beautiful
than i thought it could ever be
there is a wisdom
to quality over quantity
to having an intimate
captivated
group of feelers
to having my best friends
and greatest companions
witness and co-create
pure life with me
i have a habit of shapeshifting
of being a different person
in front of different people
don’t get me wrong
it’s been a great privilege
to play around with my personality
and be a chameleon
but on that stage
i was laid bare
there was no choice
but to strip away
the subconscious filters
and conscious indentations
i had become so used to
inhabiting
the truest version
an accurate
authentic depiction of myself
was put on display yesterday
and i loved it
thank you to all the beautiful humans
who made the trek
and celebrated my special day with me
or shall i say, our special day
-
these last few weeks have been
full of binary
although
there’s a line which cuts through
the boundary
there’s nowhere to go
and no one to be
and i can’t
get enough of it
-
what a gift
this life is
what a gift
you are
to me
keep being
you
i’ll keep being
me
-
life is so delicious
i’ll see you soon.